Hello

Hello, are you there…

What happened sometimes you call sometimes you don’t other times you text. I text you back and then there is a long pause? Are you going to respond? What will you say next? Should I say something first to break the silence to keep this conversation moving? What if we both have nothing to say or we don’t have anything in common. What if the next thing you say is no or I don’t agree. What do I say then? What if I don’t ever hear from you for another 6 months or a year. Why does our communication have so many spaces in-between? I feel like I am on the longest pause ever. My nerves are at their edge and my body is heating up. This is the most intense game of communication I have ever played. There are so much pause and space I don’t know what is going to happen next. Are you playing with me? Is this part of the game? Are you and I playing a long slow infinite game of communication in which we keep adding to the conversation over time? Part of me hopes so while the other part of me is going mad. I’m not sure if the game is still going and I’m here.